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Is One Man Ever Enough?

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

It shocks people when I tell them that Doug and I have been together for nearly 24 years. I wish it was because they don’t think I look old enough, but that doesn’t seem to be the reason. I get, “Oh, really?” from straight people who didn’t think it was possible for two gay men to stay together for that long, and a “Well done” from gay people, who don’t think so either.
"Monogamy" by Alexander Dugaev
“Monogamy” by Alexander Dugaev

In America, intimacy means sex, and sex means heterosexual marriage, the standard by which all sexual and intimate relationships are judged. The one rule is that if you really love someone, you don’t cheat on them, but the media reminds us daily that what people say they believe and what they do are often vastly different. Cheating is lying about exclusivity in a relationship. When I was married and having my first adult gay relationship, I was cheating.

Andy Manis for the New York Times

Andy Manis for the New York Times

The Western hetero-normative idea is that one person, forever and for all time, will meet all the emotional needs of the other. In many of the most fundamentalist and socially conservative societies, these relationships are frequently very paternalistic and based on a wish to control the behavior of the other.

Some people are turning to what they call “responsible non-monogamy” or “polyamory.” Simply discussing this will lead some to accuse me of being un-Christian, anti-family or promoting the “homosexual agenda.” I just received an email from a “Christian” who called me an amoral, bug-chasing (HIV), pagan Nazi who helped to corrupt the clergy. Read on.
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First, I am not advocating polyamory, but only describing something that is already happening. Second, I believe in marriage or I wouldn’t have gotten married, once to a woman and now to a man. Finally, no statistics are available, but polyamory is reported to be more common in heterosexuals.

I have a couple of physician friends each of whom are married to a woman, and the two men in this four-some have had a “friends with benefits” relationship for years. The two couples travel together and their families are friends. I also have several friends who are married to women, and while having chosen marriage they have been unsuccessful in choosing against their homosexuality. Although many do not self-identify as gay, each, with the consent of their wives, has had a homosexual lover.
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Some gay friends in long term, committed relationships, have had with the full knowledge of their partners, long standing sexual relationships outside of the spousal bed. Some men have what they call “fuck buddies.” These are not “open relationships” where partners permit each other to have a little or a lot of casual sex with others; they are longer term sexual relationships with varying degrees of emotional intimacy.

One friend dearly loves his partner of 35 years who is physically impotent because of surgery and radiation for prostatic cancer. He also dearly loves another man he has never met in person but with whom he, for several years, has had an almost daily internet relationship including sexual intimacy via web cam. Variations are seemingly endless.

Many gay male couples, and good percentage of straight couples, don’t necessarily define fidelity by sexual exclusivity, but rather they consider the emotional commitment to their partner as more compelling. Surveys have shown that after five years together a high percentage of gay couples have had occasional or frequent sex outside the spousal relationship, but while not sexually monogamous, they remain emotionally monogamous.

One of the problems some gay couples experience is that the relationship is too dyadic, too narrow, with no room for even platonic friendships. Problems in these relationships do not result from a lack of exclusiveness but instead come from a lack of agreement about it.

Polyamory literally means “many loves,” and those who subscribe to it say that humans can experience degrees of loving others and the lines between friends and lovers can be porous. The primary relationship resembles a spousal relationship with a high degree of commitment; all other relationships are subordinate.
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Although they advocate for consensual, romantic love with more than their spouse, they also support a kind of “poly-fidelity” where there is fidelity within a closed system. Secondary relationships vary from casual to committed, but the secondary relationship does not carry the same degree of commitment.

Because these relationships involve both emotional and sexual intimacy, polyamorists distinguish their relationships from “swinging,” where sex is entirely recreational. They also distinguish them from polygamy, where relationships are often quite patriarchal.

The most common problems in these relationships are predictable. When someone new is brought into the system, there is an intense sexual focus on the newest member, and triangulation of relationships can result in possessiveness and jealousy. Frequency of sexual intimacy between the primary spousal partnerships may become less frequent, and maintaining these relationships is complicated by schedules and other family commitments.

To be successful, these relationships must be based on authenticity rather than sex alone. All relationships within the system must be respected and honesty is essential. Members must also be assertive about getting their own needs met.

Steven Monjez and Tiwonge Chimbalanga

Steven Monjez and Tiwonge Chimbalanga

Maintaining dignity requires the freedom to choose. According to some men with whom I have corresponded in Africa, India and the Southern Pacific where heterosexuality is “mandatory,” networks of polyamorous relationships have proven to be a possible solution for men who have not been able to give up their homosexuality. Ultimately, they carry less risk of transmission of HIV and other STDs. Looking at polyamory from a public health standpoint alone, not a moral one, for those who for whatever reason have chosen to have multiple sexual partners, a closed system of relationships with poly-fidelity would have some protective advantages.

References:
Bettinger M: “Polyamory and Gay Men: A family systems approach,” Journal of GLBT Family Studies, 2005.
Boston Globe
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EDGEonthenet.com reported that a transgender woman, Ashley Santiago, was found stabbed to death in her home outside San Juan on Monday, April 19, 2010.

Ashley Santiago

Ashley Santiago


Police said Santiago had been stabbed 14 times. Investigators have yet to determine whether Santiago’s killer (or killers) murdered her because of her gender identity or expression

Santiago’s death comes a little more than five months after Jorge Steven López Mercado’s brutal murder stunned Puerto Rico. Prosecutors contend Juan A. Martínez Matos decapitated, dismembered and partially burned the gay teenager’s body before dumping it along a remote roadside near Cayey on Nov. 13, 2009.

Puerto Rico’s hate crime law includes both sexual orientation and gender identity. The statutes took effect in 2002, but prosecutors rarely apply it.

To read the rest of the article, click here.

National Pro-Gay Marriage Cupcake Day

National Pro-Gay Marriage Cupcake Day

Cupcakes at our Gay Wedding

Cupcakes at our Gay Wedding

Olympic Swimming Champion Comes Out

Monday, April 19, 2010

From PinkNews.co.uk • April 19, 2010

The 34-year-old former Australian Olympic swimmer Daniel Kowalski ,who won four Olympic medals during his career, has come out.

Daniel Kowalski

Daniel Kowalski


Kowalski said he was inspired by Welsh rugby player Gareth Thomas and felt “anger because I was jealous … he was out and felt liberated and free”.

He added: “And it really got me thinking that I could do that (come out) if I wanted to. I felt really compelled to do it because it’s very tough to live a closeted existence.”

“Things pop in my head that make me realise that I clearly suppressed these thoughts of being gay … because it was ‘wrong’, as a male it’s ‘wrong’ but even more as an elite athlete,” he said.

“I always knew that I lacked confidence when I stood up on the blocks and I do wonder sometimes if that lack of confidence was fear – fear of not really knowing who I am.”

He added that he hoped to find love soon, saying: “I look for all the things straight people do. I want to fall in love and be happy and be proud of who I am.”

To read the rest of the article, click here.

The Language of God

Friday, April 16, 2010

I suppose some will question the reason I have posted this on my website. The basic reason is that the two issues that result in the greatest conflict for someone who is trying to deal with their sexual orientation are family and relgion, often enmeshed. This was certainly my experience.

I also realize that many gay men and women feel beaten up by religion, and understandably so. I felt that way for 20 years of my life. But to paint all religions with the same brush is just as wrong as to suggest that all gay people are alike.

I also know that many of you don’t feel the need for a religion, particularly one that demands commitment to certain dogma. I have experienced that as well.

However, I also know that there are some of you who have been searching for those “thin spaces,” the place where you feel separated from a god by a very thin space, and that is the reason I am posting this video.

For me, I wanted to experience those thin spaces in a religious tradition and I found it through the United Church of Christ. I was drawn to it by their comment, “We don’t do dogma.” I explored it to find it open and affirming and committed to it when I found them saying, “No matter who you are, No matter where you are on life’s journey, you are welcome here.”

So I share this with you, as someone who appreciated that at a time in my life when I needed it, someone shared something simlilar with me.

The Language of God

This is a piece I wrote that was originally published in the online magazine, Queer Magazine.

Being gay and a person of faith is not easy, no matter what your religion. While I’m not suggesting you must believe, it is possible to be gay and a believer. The two are not mutually exclusive.

A contemporary theologian, Marcus Borg, writes about “thin places,” those times when the dividing line between our own life and the presence of God is very thin. A friend of mine, raised a Roman Catholic, said he left the church because he came to know that he was a good person, and he could not accept the judgment of the church. Although many gay people have left organized religion for that reason, many of us continue to seek those thin places.

I was raised in the Evangelical Lutheran Church in America whose policy it is that if you are homosexual, you are expected to abstain from sexual relationships. The church accepted me while I was growing up and during the 18 years I was married to a woman, so when I came out at age 40, I rejected the idea that I had suddenly become a bad person. I once thought I would always be a Lutheran, but they didn’t seem to want me any more and after many years of attempting to find a welcoming place in the Lutheran Church, I withdrew from church altogether. Yet, I always felt like something was missing.

Borg wrote in The Heart of Christianity: Rediscovering a Life of Faith, that believing in the literal interpretation of the Bible and the infallibility of the Pope are relatively recent ideas in the Christian tradition. Many people turn away from Christianity when they cannot reconcile their own beliefs with it insistence on belief in certain doctrines and belief in events such as the creation, the flood and walking on water. Borg suggests the Bible should be taken seriously, just not literally.

The Rev. Candace Chellew-Hodge wrote Bulletproof Faith: A Spiritual Survival Guide for Gay and Lesbian Christians. She advocates that the Bible should be understood in its complete context rather than interpreted literally. She discusses the “clobber passages” in the Bible that are said to prove homosexuality is sinful (Genesis 19 Leviticus 18:22 and 20:13 Deuteronomy 23:17-18 Judges 19 Kings 14:24 and 15:12 Romans 1:26 I Corinthians 6:9 I Timothy 1:19 Jude 7). Somewhat controversially, she also recommends that the gay community begin to show acceptance and understanding of those who use religion against us. She wrote, “Work out your own demons, and the perceived demons in others suddenly disappear.”

Islam is the fastest growing religion in the world, but it is also sharply fragmented, just as Christianity is. Reza Aslan wrote in No God but God: The Origins, Evolution and Future of Islam that within a few generations of the Prophet’s death, seven hundred thousand accounts of Muhammad’s words and deeds were in circulation.

As a psychiatrist, I recognize that many in my profession consider the need for a religious faith to be neurotic. I also know that memories are less and less accurate, the further removed they are from the event. The written account of Jesus life did not begin until several decades after his life, ensuring even at the time of the original recording, various interpretation of events would occur. It appears that many interpretations of both the Bible and the Koran (Qur’an) many be fabricated by individuals who sought to legitimize their own particular beliefs, but they justify these interpretations as being divinely inspired.

What is interesting is that both Jesus and Muhammad are so frequently misrepresented by their most passionate followers. Both reached out to those who were disenfranchised and challenged the conventional wisdom of their time, and they did so, not by producing one more set of new laws, but by offering insights that challenged people to develop deeper understandings. In fact, those who were responsible for rigid ideologies were often the targets of their greatest criticisms.

Those values and traditions that we inherit from our families are so deeply incorporated into our being that they are very difficult to challenge, but that is where change must begin. As we mature, we begin to see that our parents were not perfect and the structure of religious dogma is cracked. It is possible for each of us to blow up this inherited value system, and to salvage the most important remnants as building blocks for a new and personal value system. This is the essential step in moving beyond the guilt and shame which religion has created for gay men and women.

The process begins by hearing the voices of those who have various interpretations of religious truths and recognizing that religions have evolved through the centuries and will continue to do so. The church that I attend now believes that God is still speaking and continues to reveal his truths to us, including those about homosexuality.

A useful website resource for further discussion about religion and homosexuality is “Religious Tolerance.”

K Kaufmann, writing in The Desert Sun , April 4, 2010:

Most people already refer to it as the Joslyn Center. But on Tuesday, the Joslyn Senior Center in Palm Desert will officially drop the word “senior” from its name in an open move to market the facility to baby boomers.

“People who are now 55 to 75 will never call themselves seniors,” said Peter Rittenhouse, executive director of the center. The name change will also be accompanied by a new tagline for the center — “Enriching lives every day” — and more boomer-friendly activities, such as yoga classes and day trips, Rittenhouse said.

The Joslyn’s change of name and focus reflects a national trend as senior centers across the country reposition themselves with boomers in mind, said Peggy Rothschild, president of the California Association of Senior Service Centers, a networking and education group.

In another twist, centers are becoming referral sources for boomers looking for services for their parents, she said. The Golden Rainbow Center in Palm Springs, a lesbian and gay center that also recently dropped the word “senior” from its name, offers support groups for boomers caring for parents or partners, Executive Director Harvey Stern said. The center’s new name is SAGE Palm Springs at the Golden Rainbow Center — Golden Rainbow for short, Stern said. SAGE stands for Senior Action in a Gay Environment, a national group serving lesbian and gay elders.

“Gay men are much more concerned about aging,” he said. “There are a lot of reasons. Number one is the stereotype of what the word ‘senior’ conveys — people in walkers with oxygen tanks.”

To see the entire article, click here.

Animals are Gay?

Sunday, April 4, 2010

This from the New York Times by Jon Mooallem, Published: March 29, 2010

Jeff Koons for the New York Times

Jeff Koons for the New York Times


Laysan albatrosses are one of countless species in which the two sexes look basically identical. It turned out that many of the female-female pairs, at Kaena Point and at a colony that Young’s colleague studied on Kauai, had been together for 4, 8 or even 19 years — as far back as the biologists’ data went, in some cases. The female-female pairs had been incubating eggs together, rearing chicks and just generally passing under everybody’s nose for what you might call “straight” couples.

Young would never use the phrase “straight couples.” And she is adamantly against calling the other birds “lesbians” too. For one thing, the same-sex pairs appear to do everything male-female pairs do except have sex, and Young isn’t really sure, or comfortable judging, whether that technically qualifies them as lesbians or not. But moreover, the whole question is meaningless to her; it has nothing to do with her research. “ ‘Lesbian,’ ” she told me, “is a human term.”

To read the entire article, click here.

This article appeared on AKA William: All Kinds of Gay, on April 2, 2010. It appears that their is growing awareness of mature LGBT men and women and more activism related to Gay Boomers.
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Of particular interest to me is the recognition of our importance by AARP. I hope you’ll read the article in full and click on some of the links.

LGBT seniors have received great press in recent weeks. Senior group SAGE received grants. The AARP and the American Society on Aging joined a gay-led Medicaid and social security fight. And their were stories about gays who come out late in life. These stories aren’t unfolding in a vacuum, nor are they only important to elders. What happens in the realm of LGBT senior legislation will impact us all, and sooner than we think.

To read the rest of the link, click here.

This post, “The Unconscious Politics That Shape Our World, Choose Presidents and Save or Destroy Lives“, was recently posted on Alternet.

There is increasing scientific evidence that human behavior is not rational or conscious, and may be completely programmed without logic or knowledge.

These unconscious drives affect jury decisions, elections, wars, our everyday experiences and can sometimes determine life and death. This is the subject of two recent books: Shankar Vedantam’s The Hidden Brain: How our Unconscious Minds Elect Presidents, Control Markets, Wage Wars and Save our Lives, and Guillermo Jimenez’s Red Genes, Blue Genes, Exposing Political Irrationality. Both demonstrate irrationality but from slightly from different places. This essay on Alternet has interviews with these authors.

Although the post relates more to politics than it does to human sexuality, I found this paragraph particularly interesting:

MA: Similarly, you point out the unconscious roles with race and gender. Even when people are conscientiously trying not to have prejudices, they are still programmed and affect us.

SV: Yes, the unconscious bias affects our romantic decisions, our financial decisions, our moral decisions, our political decisions. One of the domains is the question of unconscious prejudice. The striking thing here is that we pay a lot of attention to hate crimes or people who explicitly say racist things or sexist things. But it turns out that at an unconscious level, prejudice exists in very large numbers of people, perhaps even among most people. These effects are subtle; they’re not the person who is burning a cross on someone else’s lawn. This is a person who may have an unconscious association in [his or her] head. But when asked to make a decision about whether somebody is guilty or innocent of a crime, or whether to hire someone for a job, these unconscious associations play very powerful roles, especially because most people do not believe the unconscious exists. And so we have no way to guard against the manipulation because we don’t even realize that we’re being manipulated.

MA: One of the most convincing parts of your book dealing with gender bias was the experiences of transgendered people. People who transgendered from women to men suddenly — although the same person, same qualifications, same education — had a better income, opportunity and less interruptions.

SV: That’s right. There is abundant research showing that, on average, women are not paid the same as men and face all kinds of challenges compared to men. But when you’re asked to make a judgment about any individual person — say Hillary Clinton in the 2008 presidential election — it’s very difficult to apply the general research on bias to an individual, because with any individual circumstance, there are many other factors: How good a candidate is Hillary Clinton, what are her positions on the issues; what’s the competition like? And so on.

This series of interviews is definitely worth of a look.